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Date: 04 August 2006 22:14:58
After just over a year of seeing each other my man and I have parted ways.
We're still friends but the "lovers" part is on hold for a month, maybe indefinitely. I don't know, we're going to see each other on Sunday to talk about things. It'll be difficult but things can't go on either with not seeing each other and a 1 1/2 hour journey across London) to have fun for 2-3 hours and then the same time getting back.
It's been getting harder and harder to see each other since he started work full time in Docklands. It's made it almost impossible to meet during the week as I work way out West. By the time we get out of work and meet in the middle it's time to think about heading home because of getting up for work the next morning.
This summer has been hard, firstly he's been working overtime; then there are problems with the woman who lives upstairs from him, and then the heat of travelling on tubes and buses the last 2 weeks made it silly and not a sensible option for so little time together.
I guess it had to come to and end at sometime - we couldn't keep drifting along in what he called an "adult relationship" - and whilst we were supposed to have an "open" relationship, I did find it hurtful when he told me he was in conversation with other women with a view to meeting them, though I must admit I do admire his honesty in telling me.
The sad thing is that whilst I didn't want to hurt him, I didn't expect to feel so hurt myself. I realise I have had stronger feelings for him than he did for me, but I don't really know because he rarely let on (like most men - afraid of showing emotions).
Sunday isn't going to be easy - but we both want to remain friends. It'll just mean fewer phone calls and MSN conversations into the night. I promise I won't keep texting or calling him and pestering to meet him to "talk" like one of his other online women does - he told me about her, but not her about me.
Think I need some comfort food - but hell I'm now diabetic so I can't.
Btw - still on the metformin and still needing immodium. Worst still - getting lots of hot flushes due to being peri-menopausal which are hell in the heatwave! It's been s bad that I bought a bigger and more powerful fan for my room.