Categories: life
Date: 09 June 2010 15:57:56
like today, I'm just not very communicative. I don't want to explain "why", because I often don't know "why".
Some days, I do not have the emotional or mental energy for other people. It's not anyone's fault, or problem. It's just the way I am made, and the way I handle things.
Some days, all I need to do is curl up in a corner and wait for my mental and emotional energy to return... mostly, I can do that without anyone knowing it's what I'm doing, because I'm very good at looking as if I'm engaging with the world around me, but am really off in a world of my own. But, some very rare days, like today, my physical energy is also utterly drained and my body rebels as well, so all I can do is what I did, phone in sick (which I was when I phoned in - I had the most colossal headache which has only just subsided) curl up and hope it's only going to be today... which it looks like being. I'm here writing, so my mental faculties are certainly returning, though I am still ignoring the phone and e-mails, instant messaging and chats are switched off, and I am not playing any games on that site where I have several games of scrabble and wordscraper on the go, .. because some people I know have difficulty accepting this totally introverted side of me, because they only see the lively, extroverted, enthusiastic side. Which they only see so much of because I am careful to make sure I got enough time, and space to re-energise myself so that these days of being totally unable to face the world because I'm so wiped out are very much a rarity now.
Some days are just for me... and I won't apologise for that.