it was bound to happen

Categories: life, it-hurts

Date: 21 September 2009 11:58:28

Should I have given any impression of being some kind of Biblical scholar, who knows exactly where to looking things up.. I apologise for misleading you. I just happen to have occasional moments of remembering where to look for things, and for all other moments, if I can remember key words, Biblegateway or Oremus (depending on your preferred version...) make me look much cleverer than I really am.

I am, like Tractor Girl, pondering how much easier some of the current stuff would be if the world were a simpler place! I am also grateful that uncertain as much of my life is, it could all so easily be so much worse, and that most of the uncertainties are not of my making, though there are things I possibly could've done to eradicate some of them a while ago.

I think I'm also letting some of the stuff that's been seriously bottled up for a very, very long time out... and it's hard work. I'm not regretting how I've done the last year or more at all, there have been far more people than me to consider, but the cost to me is only just beginning to be reckoned, and it's huge. Some I knew, and some is only just beginning to be realised.

But, as I've been holed up stewing over this all morning, I'm taking myself off for a long walk! Part Two will follow...