Date: 14 July 2009 21:47:18
You know, I've come to an interesting place in my thinking about Life, the Universe and Everything Else. It's that I'm really very content with where I'm at, and I really don't mind at all that the future is looking as totally unsettled and chaotic as it is.
There's been several distinct groups of people in my life of late... and by far the most trying have been all those with advice, and intense questioning about what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. (After those who think it's All Their Fault, despite all I've said about it being No One's Fault.) And, they are displaying far more obvious signs of nervousness and worry about my lack of organisation than I am! All I know is I currently have a part time job that might or might not have another part time job in the same institution to go alongside it. I have somewhere to stay for the immediate future, and I have options for moving nearer to the work place. I also have an option for something totally different...
I am applying for all kinds of other part time jobs, and I really do quite like the idea of working in a coffee shop kind of place or a supermarket or cleaning. And, there's always music work.
Deep down, I'm probably the most content with me, with life, and with God than I have been for more years than I want to think about... and that's far more important to me than having the rest of my life sorted. Now. It will sort... and the next year will see that happening, but for now? I'm happy.