Date: 18 November 2008 10:58:00
Tuesdays. Oh, how I don't love Tuesdays at the moment.
It's a bitty day, you see. I could be doing something at 9.10 a.m. for half an hour or so, which I was this morning. I'm definitely occupied between 11.30 and 12.45, then, have a mad dash to the 1.00 p.m. to 3.00 p.m. commitment, occasionally do something on the way home, then am occupied between 4.30 p.m. and 5.00 p.m.
Then, the evening is piano lessons. All adults. One comes every week, the others about once a fortnight, depending on their shifts. This used to be my main work, for a few years, and I've only recently got back into it again. I'm enjoying it immensely, as I always did, and am sort of wondering if I want to return to it in a more full time capacity. I knew I shouldn't have gone to the primary school assembly this morning and listen to a surprisingly good one on the use of our gifts and talents. I do assembly a few times a term, and I'd gone along this morning to be there as back up for the person who was doing it for the first time in that school.
Mmmm...
I have a bit of a dilemma on my hands at the moment. And some of that dilemma is the Using my Gifts and Talents one as well as Being the Person God Made Me. OK, it's more than a bit of dilemma - it's probably a complete life changing decision making process, and it's finally reaching the stages where I'm perfectly calm about it all, despite not having a clue about where things go next. My close friends have all had long conversations with me about it.
I just need to make the decision.
But, it's not that simple, which it never is.
It always feels worse on a Tuesday when I'm spending most of the day doing stuff I'm very good at, find easy, and enjoy. It's work, but work I do naturally and easily. Then, I hit the bit in the middle of the day which I'm getting to dislike more and more as time goes by...
But, it's an important part of the week in the life of our church, and I have no choice about doing it. All I know is by enabling it to happen, God keeps working, even if I seriously wonder what he's up to!