Categories: decisions
Date: 07 May 2009 19:11:56
Oh dear, the time has come for me to make a whole heap of lists, and I don't think I can avoid it...
I need to work out who knows what, (actually, that bit's really simple, it's a very, very limited group of people, though a wider group know Something Is Going On, and some astute souls who've guessed Something is Going On) who needs to know more sooner rather than later, who's going to be really upset if they learn about all this via grapevines, and how to deal with the fall out and flack.
I need to write four letters to people who I really don't want to find out about this from anyone other than me, and three formal letters.
I need to be tidying up various last bits of work, ready to give over to other people. Work for which I have absolutely no motivation now, what so ever.
I need to make a few decisions about the next phase. There are interesting possibilities, that depend on other peoples decisions. There is the fact I'm sorely tempted by the "Let's go somewhere where no-one knows me at all." option. (But, it would be a little foolish right now.)
There is the need to talk through some of the stuff that went on during my retreat, which I looked at again yesterday, with a bit of distance, and realised, yes, that is the stuff I really feel I need to be making room for in my life in a big way.
There is also the fact that there will be no going back. And, that is the right thing to do, scary as it feels right now.
I think I also need a large bar of chocolate!! But crisps will do...