Categories: life
Date: 03 May 2009 06:50:58
I have spent most of my life being a nocturnal creature... well, an evening one, at least. Getting up in the mornings has nearly always been a struggle.
But, since well before Easter, and before the clock changes, I have been awake very early, and staying awake. It is confusing. It is distressing on a day off, wanting a lie-in and not getting it.
I last did this on any kind of regular basis in my last term at college when my practice was to be up and working by 6.00 a.m. getting academic revision done by mid-day, and having the rest of the day free for music practice, and even some social life (away from my housemates, who were envious of said social life, but not prepared for the early mornings to achieve it!)! I've not done it since, with the exception of being up at five for occasional sermon writing purposes. I somehow need the tight deadline to deliver the written version.
It's playing havoc with several areas of life! My poor Facebook word games playing friends, also nocturnal, are giving up on me at 10, when they could have relied on me until midnight... Afternoon naps are becoming the norm on days I'm not out. Prayer has also been a late night activity, and whilst I'm trying to pray more in the mornings, (because I'm now fast asleep when I'd've been praying a couple of months ago) it doesn't feel quite right... yet.
It's such a silly thing, really. I'm getting the same amount of sleep, just at different times, but it's definitely not the same quality.
It's also hard, when I'm aiming to keep an appearance of "normality" for just a few weeks more, when something so simple, yet so significant, has changed! I'd cope with the change and work with it, if I didn't live in the same house as someone who can only cope with routine changes of her own instigation.