Categories: church, decisions, random, friends
Date: 31 January 2009 12:27:44
Breath, and calm, and think positive thoughts...
Argggghhhhhh!!
I know I'm ready. I've done all the print outs, all the equipment is packed up and ready to trundle, I've practiced all songs, I've got enough Duck Tape and hazard tape, along with extension leads, to get us through a national emergency. I've organised everyone to within an inch of their lives.... Why do I get involved in creative liturgies?! Especially in these days of Health and Safety and Fire Risks and....
Finger is unbruised enough to cope with all tomorrow will bring.
My inner being, though, is fairly bruised from yesterday, and I think I've worked out why. I need to stick to the resolve I made never to let this particular friend rant at me about another friend. I had more of it than I can can cope with, at a time when I don't need it, and I certainly didn't need the brand of teasing I was getting either, I know there are some brands of teasing I don't respond well to, (I'm better at covering it up than I used to be, but it's still not great....) and I thought this friend was aware of it. But obviously not... and it's one of those really stupid things where I feel I could well make matters worse by trying to explain it to her, when actually, she really wants to see something in a situation that's just not there.
Then, the household returns to normal today, and I'm not sure I want to hear what might be coming back from this meeting.
Why didn't I agree to plan B?