Categories: life
Date: 29 January 2011 17:10:41
Ooops...
It's been a week of revelations!!
"You are so mischievous!" one work colleague said in very giggly, but also outraged tones after a particularly silly half an hour in the office. "This is news?" I queried. Apparently so, according to the other ten people who'd also had hysterics at the time. Annoyingly, I've actually no idea what I'd said to cause the mass hysteria.. but I do know I'd been really annoyed at the situation that had been building up over that half an hour, and had, very unusually, let my feelings slip into a series of very flippant comments.
I have got to the end of a working week not totally exhausted. That the difference in so short a time is so apparent is confirmation that resigning from that role may be financially stupid at the moment, but was so right to have done.
I think it's less that I am changing, more that I am emerging!! There have been so many ways that masks have been maintained, barriers erected and kept firmly in place, various self-protection techniques employed, and all of these are finally wearing away or refusing to co-operate with each other any more. A little scary, to say the least..especially in the bit of time when I thought I was going to be stuck in the really uncomfortable phase where it felt like my stroppy, sulky, self-centred teenage self had decided to take up permanent residence again... . but I think I'm confident enough to stop hiding and start getting out there (where ever there is) again.
My poor work colleagues may be in for some more shocks....