Categories: uncategorized
Date: 21 November 2006 15:56:29
Just perusing my blog showed me that I have done 3 personality type things this month (and it's not over yet!). I wonder whether this means I am being introspective, or simply that when I see that someone else has done one of these I jump on the bandwagon and do mine aswell to see what comes up? There seem to be quite a few of these kinds of things (and a meme) going around at the moment. Perhaps it's something to do with Autumn?
Anyway, I am still at the Uni. I am in a bit of a limbo at the moment. I have in fact been feeling as though I am in a bit of a wilderness over the last few weeks. I am now asking myself whether I should be doing something proactive and going out there and getting what I want.. The thing is, that means knowing what I want. I want lots of things, but they're not all possible and some things are not forseeable. So how does one plan around the unknown? Do I just go with the flow and allow stuff to happen (makes me sound almost lazy - which isn't the case even with the stuff that seems to be 'just happening' there's a certain amount of proactivity involved, it's just to a lesser extent than going out there to find something I might want). The world and all the possibilities seem to limitless when I think about different possible routes and directions, but it seems somehow irresponsible not to explore them. But then there's all the other things I am already committed to which rather limit the time available to do the exploring. And then you end up doing something and wondering how you got there. I wonder where the next 'something' will be for me, and whether when I look back, I will have 'ended up' there, or made it happen?