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Date: 17 December 2013 07:46:56
I've pondered this. Panic attacks can be random and triggered by practically anything, in my experience. However, if there is something that is bound to cause issues, the sensible thing surely, would be to avoid it. However, things are never that simple. I cannot cope properly with anything life throws at me. I especially struggle with work, and always have done. However, work, and holding down a job, is something that all doctors will recommend is a depressive's aim. It gives the sufferer some sense of self-worth that is often absent. for want of a better phrase, it's making the sufferer part of "normal" society, although I don't really like the word "normal". The concept of working, volunteering, being out doing things, improving mental health, is the theory at least. I do things at church, and I have a social life, both of which were recommendations from my doctor. I did charity volunteering while I was rebuilding my stamina, to be able to cope with a day's work. However, I did not find any of it easy, and still don't now. I often find myself panicking after wards about something i said or did which could have upset or angered someone. Either that or someone says something to me, that upsets me, and more often then not sends me down the "I'm a waste of space, and doesn't deserve to be alive" path. It's all about challenging yourself I guess, but there are times when the paranoia and panic have exhausted me more than the activity itself, that you begin to wonder why you do it. There is enjoyment, and from my perspective, I need people's approbation, as I have no self belief or confidence. However, this is often short-lived. The pleasure and enjoyment is there, but it really doesn't seem to last that long, before you hit rock bottom again.