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Date: 29 November 2005 15:28:07
We stopped playing chess.
We still play it from time to time, but it's not the same.
The thing is, I'd only ever played it with one person (despite some comically desperate attempts to interest others), and it seemed to bind us together. But three years ago my chess partner just didn't seem to be so keen on it any more. Nothing was said, but other things always seemed to get in the way. A while later they admitted that they didn't enjoy it, and simply didn't want to play any more. So now I'm not even sure that they ever enjoyed it - maybe they were just humouring me all along.
And now when we play I feel like the smoker who has given up, but still has the odd puff now and again. It gives no pleasure, and only serves to remind the addict that they are addicted, and pathetic.