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Date: 06 December 2005 15:39:26
I watched a programme monitoring how families bring up their kids. It had lots of uninteresting points, but one thing that got my attention was how the children of the advertising executives had loads of confidence, and the children of the christian couple had very little. Lack of confidence was, of course, a Very Bad Thing according to the programme. But something which advertising executives have, and Christians don't (and let's be clear - the programme was all about judging the parents by their children) is usually something I don't want. So, I ask you, is confidence desirable?
The word confidence makes me instantly think of two scenarios: one where somebody else (for example, an advertising executive) has buckets of confidence and is consequently unbearable, and another where I am unable to do something because of my lack of confidence. This suggests that I want more of the stuff and want everybody else to have less. To be sure, I don't like being held back by my lack of confidence, but nor do I want to turn into the person annoying everybody else (any more than I am already that person (and there speaks my lack of confidence - preempting criticism)). And I'm not even sure that I do lack confidence - I've got myself into plenty of scrapes which, in retrospect, I can't believe I thought I could handle (like marriage, having kids, writing a blog...)
Am I confused? Err, I'm not sure.