Categories: uncategorized
Date: 18 January 2006 14:03:00
I began to wonder whether or not I existed.
Someone mentioned me in their blog and it gave me such a boost that it made me wonder if I'd really existed before. Now I find quite often that as I look at other people's blogs half of me is just wanting to see if I'm mentioned. It's not that I think I should be, it's just that I desperately hope that I am. And if I'm not (which is most of the time), I feel diminished in a way which makes me think that maybe I only exist when documented in a blog (except this one, which obviously doesn't count) or elsewhere. Maybe I've shrunk into some blog-only state, like a genie shrinking into a bottle, and I can only be called into existence by someone talking about me. Or maybe I'm just completely self-centred and egotistical - like Oscar Wilde when he said the only thing worse than being talked about was not being talked about.