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Date: 19 January 2006 14:29:36
I was bemused.
It was in the playground at school and something had happened that really upset me - I was in tears. And one of my classmates said "shall I go and get your big brother over", knowing that he was a couple of years ahead in the same school.
Part of me realized, even at the time, that the person asking obviously thought this might be comforting and that it would be nice having my brother over. But the other 99% of me was just bemused. Bemused like I'd have been if an alien had just landed and asked if I wanted elephant shoe ice cream poured down my neck. Too bemused in fact to put my thoughts into words, but if I had done they'd have said something like "Look, life is unpleasant enough as it is, why would I want something that'll make it so much worse?"
That incident just seems to sum up my relationship with my brother (and probably my whole family), at least until about 10 years ago when things began to slightly improve.
How I pray that my kids don't fall into the same pattern.