Three days ago

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Date: 07 February 2006 15:11:14

The worm tried to turn.

There is a person in my life, let's call her Beelzebub, who has made it her goal to make my life intolerable. For just over three years she has been constantly trying to undermine me and destroy my confidence, and to destroy my marriage as well. In trying to handle this I find myself contemplating suicide, contemplating just running away, and even contemplating murder, but all have unfortunate side effects. I've asked Beelzebub's mother for help but she just says that she's sorry but can't see that there's anything she can do and that it's simply my problem to deal with.

All this time I've tried to be decent, kind, even loving to Beelzebub, and things have only got worse. But after a couple of particularly horrendous days, the answer came to me. Having been kind all this time and got nothing but increased nastiness in return, I should obviously start being nasty myself. So I need to ignore her even on those rare occasions when she talks to me. If she asks for something I must give her nothing, and preferably give her no indication that I acknowledge she even exists. I must learn well every lesson she has taught me over the last three years.

That's the plan. But, unfortunately, I can't quite do it. I ignore her once, even twice, but on the third time my heart wins out. When she reaches out her hand to me I can hold off for a second or two but no longer.

I guess I'm doomed - nothing's ever going to change.