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Date: 25 January 2005 21:42:01
Ok so todays been an odd day. Good day mostly, ended on a hard note trying to put son to bed for various reasons. Daughter was wonderful and patient though, with him and with me. Hmm that doesnt say that much so a brief explanation.. Son is autistic and sometimes he'll want something and not have the language to explain. Tonights troubles revolved around the fact that he wanted red and yellow. Found yellow but couldn't find red anywhere. Tricky sometimes when the howling starts... Distraction found after a few vain attempts and in the end he went to sleep and I had a headache. Daughter was the calm voice of wanting to help when help can't be done..
So a list of todays oddnesses....
Loads of positive emails today. Sometimes I'll email around about the book or freelance work or stuff and get very few replies. Today felt more positive than that. All speculatives so far, but wonderful speculatives, especially if they come off...
Went to a prayer meeting at the local secondary school which I support. Saw loads of youth group kids around and generally had a very pleasant afternoon. Good time of prayer but nicer to walk around the place and say hi to loads of people. Also met the librarian at the school who I've emailed a few times off and on and had a hugely pleasant chat about all sorts of things. Funnily enough it was the isolation that she felt being in a remote and set apart room that I identified with the most. More on that later.
Day went in a bit of a blur the rest of the time, few bits and bobs here and there. Had a bath listening to Radio 5 and reading the tail end of Red Moon Rising by Pete Grieg and Dave Roberts. It's a hugely inspirational and encouraging book to read. The things that have struck me are that if there were a 24/7 prayer week going on now I'd be there like a shot, it seriously motivates you to prayer and it also makes me realise that I'm without the chameraderie that I used to feel when I was working at DI. Something to hope and pray for I think.
Anyhow, while I was reading this came to mind.. Haven't thought much on it, nor edited it now. This is as mulled through my mind as I read away in a gently dazed state:
If you look at the tray of drinks
as you carry them to the table
you will spill them.
If you look at the juggling balls
as they loop around your head
they will fall.
If you look at the ground you stand on
unsure of whether it is safe or not
you will stop.
It is in looking away, forward, onward.
It is in trusting in what is to come rather than worrying about now.
It is in knowing that you can do what you can do
and not trying to make it all happen.
It is in trusting, it is in having faith,
THAT is when you will juggle and carry and move on,
because you will do it not in your strength,
but in God's will.
Hmm not my sort of thing. But there you go. Tangents take all forms...
Finally, on the please buy my book title :) Chatted to someone at Waterstones, North Street, Guildford today. They'd sold quite a few copies of the book by order and had bought a few copies on the strength of that.. 3 copies are sitting on the shelf forlornly at the moment and if anyone was in Guildford and fancied something to read for a weekend I'd be delighted to see them go to good homes :) Trying to get the book taken on at Ottakar's as well so if Wstones is all sold out by the time you get there then that'd be the next best thing :D
Going to ATEI tomorrow. It's the arcade games machine trade show. Looking forward to it muchly. Nighty night.
Currently listening to: Radio 5. Liverpool Watford. bit boring but only had a portable radio to listen to while in the bath. Earlier on was mainly listening to U2: Atomic Bomb. Currently playing: Nothing today, apart from the futile feeling email gameCurrently reading: Just finishing Red Moon Rising by Pete Grieg and Dave Roberts. Top Stuff well worth a read.