Goodbye, girls

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Date: 30 June 2006 23:47:52

My last night at my current Brownies. They were having a sleepover but we are leaving on holiday early (well, earlyish) tomorrow so I didn't "sleep", but waited till we'd finished the evening's activities. I'm sorry to leave, but it is right for a number of reasons. We have found it difficult to have weekends away, with it being a Friday meeting, and the leaders have all known each other for years, which makes it hard to "break in" to the group and get involved in planning things - which I need to do if I'm going to be a proper leader, get my qualification and possibly run my own group eventually. And there is also a baby that comes regularly (daughter of one of the leaders) who is almost exactly the same age as the baby we lost last year would have been - so that makes it much harder - as she gets older and I keep thinking, that would be what our baby would be like.

We had a lovely time this evening doing some things we don't normally have time for, and I said I'd stay till they got ready for bed. Two of them were going to do their Promise (in their PJs!), too, and I would have liked to stay for that - but, after they got their sleeping bags out the other leaders decided it was time to lock up for the night, and would I go please? I will miss the girls, but that reminded me why it is really better that I move to another group. I've already visited them, and as a larger group with the same number of leaders, I think they need me more.

I've had a bad day in other ways, too, so it's good that we are on holiday now.