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Date: 28 March 2005 23:03:52
But we did go for a walk today. It was about 4 1/2 miles and it took nearly 3 hours - but it was up a very very very very steep hill - the highest near us, and there are is a lot of Up in the North, as I am discovering on bike rides too... much more Up on my way to work.
I have had a lovely bank holiday weekend, with cycling, walking, and chocolate (too much chocolate - I have a mouth ulcer, though it may be the paludrine (anti-malarials, having got back from overseas a week ago) rather than the chocolate. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. But (geeky medic-type fact) I thought I had the mouth ulcer/paludrine link broken since I'm taking folic acid (no immediate plans to "try" again but you are supposed to get topped up a few months in advance). Paludrine gives quite a lot of people mouth ulcers and at least one person other than me finds that Marmite helps, which has B vitamins in - including folic acid. So, I think it must be the chocolate...
Incidentally I know people have been thinking of us over the miscarriage and thanks - it means a lot when people are kind and pray etc. I feel a lot more like me than I did, both physically and emotionally, and having not been in the office much what with time off, holidays, and travel, I think it's been good for me to have a break. I don't feel quite as guilty, either, about noticing the advantages of not being pregnant.
Church has been both good and also hard - had a wobbly moment yesterday morning - we sponsored an Easter lily in memory of our baby, and first of all seeing the list of names made me feel sad, but then The Spouse™ had forgotten to tell me he had told them not to put our names, so I thought they'd forgotten us. But on the whole it was good. A very helpful piece on Woman's Hour said that many women feel very close to Mary after having lost a baby, it being the Annunciation too that day, and this made me think quite a bit about her experience of the first Easter.