Categories: random
Date: 02 March 2009 22:03:14
Can hang on such a thin thread sometimes. You think everything's going to be ok, you think he's through the worst, you think you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Then BAM. You get a phonecall that tells you differently.
The shock was the worst bit. I couldn't believe she was talking about the right person. Then I just sat there. Stared into space. I had been all set to go to the allotment, but that didn't happen until I'd stared into space for 20 minutes. When I did go, I dug, and dug and dug, taking all my feelings out on the ground. With Kate in my ears, I only stopped and broke down when 'Canaan's Land' came on.
After a good old dig and a good old cry, I felt like I'd let out many of my clogged up feelings, and I went for a long walk, with some slightly cheerier music.
There's nothing I can do now. We did everything we could.