Categories: swansea
Date: 29 September 2005 21:36:26
I dunno what's up with me tonight. I feel really sad and down, and I really don't know why. I've just spent the last hour sat on my bed, staring into space, doing nothing. I did have music on, but I wasn't really listening. I had a rainbow fleece over me, but it was as if all the excitedness had been drained. I do occasionally have quiet periods, but not usually like this. I feel like someone has blown out the fire inside me. Its just gone.
I would expect to feel down, if there was anything major to feel down about. But I can't think of anything. There is some stuff I need to sort out in my head, but I don't really see why that would make me feel like this. I feel like the whole world's problems are balanced precariously on my shoulders. I was fine this afternoon. There was the start of year service in the chaplaincy, that I sang in. I was as high as a kite then.
Any suggestions to bring the usual bouncy ERG back would be gratefully appreciated. I do know some people who might enjoy some peace and quiet, but I want to feel excited again. :(