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Date: 01 October 2005 16:01:12
Thank you everyone for your supportive comments. For most of yesterday I continued to feel really low, and still didn't really understand why. I went to see a very good friend and talked stuff through with her, and by the time I left I was feeling slightly more ERGish. I got home in time for a house meal, in a more positive mood, and discovered that my parents had rung. I thought it was unusual because they usual ring later in the evening. I returned their call, to discover that my Mum has been referred to a surgeon, because she has been having problems with her shoulder (it won't move where its supposed to), and will probably need surgery. This news didn't exactly help me get back to normal ERGness.
This morning I went to Tesco, under strict orders of a friend (I had been trying to eat for several days with v.little food in the house), but when I got there I felt really weird. I have had a sore throat for a day or so, and then in Tesco I had a bad headache, felt really disorientated and slightly dizzy. I was wondering around Tesco in a complete daze. A housemate had been in bed the past few days with a similar thing - probably a virus - so it wasn't particularly surprising, but just annoying. I am beginning to feel that 'life' just isn't being fair at the moment.
But, apart from some physical symptoms (that aren't actually too bad at the moment) I am feeling better than I was. I think part of the problem was that I was worrying about other people's problems too much. When I'm working in a hospital, I don't generally worry a lot about individual patients. I see them come in ill and go home better every day, so I don't have the time or the energy to worry about patients - I think if I tried to, I'd make myself ill. But when its friends and family with the problems or illness, then I do worry a lot more. Its just natural to do so. I think its important to remember this when working in the hospital, so that you can empathise with their relatives as they struggle to cope.
Anyway, I'm going to go home and have a few hours rest before I go to a friend's birthday party - at least I don't have to go very far, its in our house!