Categories: uncategorized
Date: 04 January 2006 00:01:11
I have just discovered that if, 5 months ago, I had acted differently, been slightly more relaxed and taken up hints that were obviously there, then things would probably be a whole lot different now. Recently, I had been wondering if that was the case. So I decided to ask. Now I know that it was the case, I don't know if I should have asked in the first place. I thought I wanted to know the truth, no matter how brutal it was. Now I'm not so sure.
I am happy, generally, with the way things have turned out. And I'm glad they have turned out that way. But, I can't help thinking, 'if i'd done that then, where would I be now?' Would I be happier? I know I shouldn't think like that, but its hard not to. I can't change the past. Theres nothing I can do about it now. I can only learn from it. Take my experiences with me to the future. Try not to make similiar mistakes (was it a mistake? I dunno) again.
I know most readers won't know the specific details about this confusion, but helpful comments would be appreciated. Thanks.