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Date: 08 February 2006 22:43:09
I've just come back from bible study. We were discussing forgiveness. But out of the blue, I suddenly felt anger towards the God who we had all just praised for His grace and forgiveness.
It was after the discussion, we were listening to a worship song on a CD to finish off with. I was quietly thinking to myself. I thought about a child (M) who I know through my nursing placement. I pictured the child's face. The pain. The trauma. The way M's life has been completely destroyed. I shouted, 'HOW?! How the **** could You let this happen?!!' Its just not fair.
Most of my life I have been familiar with frequently asked questions about the suffering in the world, and how can God let it happen. I wrote essays about it when doing RE at GCSE. I had always justified it to myself by knowing that He gave us freewill. I know we are not puppets on a string. But, when you can see the suffering first hand, it is so much harder to accept.
It was a shock. I have never found myself so angry at Him before. When the song had finished I had to leave the room to compose myself. And now, the shock has gone. But the questions still remain.