Date: 18 December 2006 23:37:37
Apologies for the severe lack of blogging recently. Christmas seemed to appear out of nowhere this year, and even now I don't really feel in the Christmas spirit. These past few months I've been ill numerous times (at the moment I've got a chesty cough) and more recently, I have obviously been trying to deal with the shock and grief of Mike's death. Not to mention the pressures of writing a dissertation, doing shift work in the hospital and trying to continue with 'normal life'. I did my last shift on Thursday night and then suddenly realised that it was my last weekend in Swansea I hadn't written any Christmas cards or wrapped up any presents for Swansea people. These past few days have been a rush to get Christmas preparations sorted, clean the entire house and pack up for travelling home today, as well as do all the Christmas celebrations with friends and church.
I just feel like this term has completely knackered me, both physically and emotionally. I look back on it now, and I really don't know how I got through it. A friend in Swansea gave me for Christmas a Mr Happy cushion / hot waterbottle holder, saying that he saw it and instantly decided it was a perfect present for me! I did question whether I am really that happy generally, for him to make that association and my friends assured me that I am generally smiley and cheerful. I suppose I should take it as a compliment that I can come across as smiley and cheerful, even when life isn't so great. I'm just bemused by it. Not sure quite how I do it. Although, I do know I could do it without Him upstairs and numerous good friends (obviously one is more than good friends and theres also more friends than I could link to - or not if they don't have a blog). But anyway, thank you.