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Date: 24 January 2005 19:56:46
As a few people have noted in their blogs, various nameless scientists have decreed today to be the most depressing day of the year (a combination of miserable weather, debt and other stuff). Well, despite today being payday (and not a minute too soon!) I have to say: I've felt crap all day. At work those of us who weren't off sick were discussing Seasonal Affective Disorder and all diagnosed ourselves with it. I'm so fed up of it being cold and dark and damp. And as if that's not bad enough, I unthinkingly stuck on one of my favourite CDs just now, and was writing this as my "gets me every time" "life repeating art" "I suck at relationships" track came on so now I'm feeling even worse. Sigh. Note to self: you know yourself well enough to know that listening to sappy music when you're down is a bad idea.
Anyway, in other news I've started reading Jamieson's "A Churchless Faith", which I think a number of people here have read. It's interesting, though the people he's looking at are slightly different from me (have left evangelical, pentecostal and/or charismatic churches and ended up in no church at all, whereas it didn't occur to me to stop going to church, I just needed to go to a very different type and style of church). But despite that a lot of it is ringing bells and as it's a scholarly work (based on his PhD research) it's making the process I've been going through these last few years feel much less random. I think it will also be good to be thinking some of this stuff through now before I start any counselling (which I've still not sorted out, but hopefully will very soon).
Anyway, I'm currently living with a permanent "wading through treacle" feeling. Roll on summer (and can we have some sun this year please).