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Date: 23 February 2005 18:51:28
So today at work I felt really good about things - probably mainly due to the large amount of (overdue) filing I did into the filing cabinet otherwise known as B1N. Very satisfying indeed!
But then I got home this evening though to find a letter from the Uni to say that although I'd been shortlisted I'd not got the Uni funding for the PhD place. All is not lost - Uni funding was always only going to be my backup, and providing I'm still one of the Department's top 2 candidates I'm sorted as they have a couple of automatically funded ESRC places which they give to their best candidates (I'll know about that next month hopefully, once the ESRC application is submitted to the Department). I can't quite figure out how I feel about this. Having the backup of Uni funding would have been reassuring, as well as a bit of an affirmation that I'm not crap or just kidding myself that I could do this. Plus of course it would have taken a bit of pressure off. But maybe a bit of pressure is what my application now needs.
I don't know. I'm going to the gym. Perhaps a workout will help me think more clearly.