Categories: phd
Date: 10 January 2006 20:50:55
... but I'm really not sure where.
I went back to uni today, lugging a big bagful of essays, and it suddenly hit me that not only have I not had a break and I'm absolutely *****ed, I haven't given my PhD a second thought since the end of last term. This is not good. I've talked before about my counselling and my need to be "in control" - at the moment, in PhD-land, I don't feel like I'm in control At All. My supervisor said not to worry, I've just moved house and had loads of essays to mark and all the rest of it (no kidding) but I *am* worrying. I am so stressed about it, and just one day at uni (transferring my comments for the essays onto the official forms) has wiped me out, I feel utterly exhausted and like I'm running on empty already - this so-called holiday hasn't recharged any batteries for me whatsoever. Supervisor even told me to take another week off somewhere and not come in, but with my own classes starting this week and tutorials for the undergrads starting in a couple of weeks, where I'm supposed to magic up this extra week from I really don't know. My next break isn't till Easter, when - oh joy - I have another 83 essays to mark. I'm not happy.