Categories: phd
Tags: supervision, PhD
Date: 04 May 2006 12:11:29
I have supervision tomorrow, where we will be discussing the assignment that I finally submitted to them earlier this week (after a marathon not-quite-all-nighter from which I still haven't totally recovered). For some reason I was getting inordinately anxious about it - I think the fatal combination of my perfectionism and my crappily low self-esteem had convinced me that they think I'm rubbish and not up to the PhD, and God knows I really haven't done anything like the amount of work I would have liked to have done. But I've just received their bit of an end-of-year form that we all have to fill in, which in conjunction with my report and work-in-progress seminar details what I've got to show for myself after the year and how I'm doing, and they said such positive things I'm now really embarrassed! If only they really knew! (I always feel like "if only they really knew" whatever course I do, but I really did think this would be the one where I finally get found out!).
This made me laugh though: "...she is clearly extremely diligent ... and takes a very mature and responsible attitude to her work". Yeah, especially at 3 in the morning of my extension date.