Categories: work, prayer, life, spiritual-journey
Date: 26 March 2012 04:17:12
I had my first-ever work medical today, for the walking postman position I interviewed for last week. We shall see how it goes. Good news in that, despite a prominent belly at times :) (though I have lost some weight through diet and exercise also), my BMI is apparently exactly where it should be (25), my blood pressure is fantastic, and my general health and reflexes are all good. I also (look away if eating or drinking) had my first-ever urine test!: and was amazed the results came back in a minute. Of course I had to mention my history of depression and anxiety, but what God wills will be...
Edit: as per Miss Lisa's comment "can’t say it was my favourite thing in the world to do", I acknowledge there were parts prodded and poked where I did not expect to be... I was going to pass over it, but may as well allude to it. And I also confess to some anxiety about whether I produced enough urine having never done so before; I wasn't asked for more so I know now for (should there be a) next time...
I did not hear back about the position I interviewed for two weeks ago so I rang the agency late last week and was told it was a "No". Disappointed slightly, but as above, what God wills will be...
I say that, and need to keep saying it, as I can lose sight of God's providence and sovereignty at times as expect my, rather than Thy, will to be done. And saying it sadly does not instantly transform my heart and will; but God willing in time it will. Recent posts in particular by Tractor Girl, Dormouse, Yudikris and Greenpatches, and some wise words from my priest and my friends, have made me take a good look at what I expect from life, and from God as well truth be told, and to realise I need to let go at times, putting my faith in God, working towards cultivating and growing the virtues, while rooting up the vices. And when the right job presents itself at the right time all will be well. I also must focuson the here and now, doing all I can at this moment to reflect Christ in whatever I do and say.
I doubt anyone can improve on the Lenten prayer of St Ephrem the Syrian to ask for these things:
O Lord and Master of my life, take from me the spirit of sloth, despair, lust of power and idle talk.
But grant unto me, Your servant, a spirit of chastity, humility, patience and love.
Yes, O Lord and King, grant me to see mine own faults and not to judge my brother or sister. For blessed are You unto the ages of ages. Amen.