Categories: work
Date: 22 July 2010 06:56:31
In a good way.
News of my retraction of my resignation has spread...and I've been rather bowled over by the response.
Not meaning to sound egotistical, but am writing this for my own benefit as I re-visit past blogs occasionally [how indulgent!] to see what I was thinking.
I have had a few hugs from staff.
I have had many face-to-face comments from colleagues expressing their joy, their word not mine, that I am staying.
I have had several e-mails saying they are happy I am staying as well as writing they value and respect me as a person, and say I am a great colleague, and friend.
These mean more to me than anything else I could think of. I always hoped I was an alright person at work, prone to occasional frustrations [which I am trying to work on], but at the least someone who got his work done and helped people as I could with whatever IT issue they were facing -- as well as sometimes listening and sympathising with non-IT issues they were facing.
All this: the resigning, the inner turmoil, the offers of different roles, the much-valued advice, prayers and encouragement from here, the support, prayers and encouragement from friends, and the acceptance of a new role here...all this I can now see has been for a purpose. And even the struggles last year and admittance to hopsital which in a way led me to where I am now and led me to have fears about my capability in my role -- there was God's guiding Hand in that too. Because a few more cracks are appearing, albeit small ones, tiny ones, but cracks nevertheless, in the distorted view I have of myself: and bit by bit I am seeing I have some worth: and that I am appreciated, sometimes liked, and sometimes loved, by others. And it feels rather nice.
Thanks and praise be to God.