Categories: stress, work, self-esteem, spiritual-journey
Date: 13 July 2010 09:58:22
2 weeks in which I've given into negative thoughts rather than attempting to dispute them.
[As I told my pscyhologist this afternoon, is there any point in my continuing? Like my spiritual struggle, I give up at any hurdle. I will keep going...trusting in the mercy of God...]
A day when I was asked by my manager if there was the possibility, given a change in role, I'd consider staying in my current company. That knocked me for a six [link for those from non-cricketing countries] and fed into my fear of leaving and having nothing to do. In one sense I know I need to go; in another ... ??? And I'm still processing being asked this for the first time almost two months after I submitted my resignation. It does make me feel wanted, but at the same time ...
A week in which I've barely spoken to the colleague who sits behind me, whom I count as a friend, because I'm liable to burst into tears if I say anything. And I am someone who either talks too much or shuts up completely.
Tomorrow is a new day. And there is always hope.