Categories: depression, anxiety, stress, self-esteem
Date: 06 December 2009 00:56:50
Words cannot express my thanks for your love, hugs, prayers and comments -- thank you so much. And I do, feebly it must be admitted, remember and pray for all of you. I have lots of catching up to do soon.
I am on overnight leave this weekend to prepare for a possible discharge sometime this week. It was nice to sleep in my own bed last night, and wonderful to be home with my parents. My sister and brother-in-law, and of course my two lovely nieces, are dropping by for lunch today: cannot wait to see them!
Monday and Tuesday were very bad days, but after Tuesday's session with the wondrous psychologist the week improved, as did my confidence and I even managed some rather pleasant and worthwhile thoughts about myself, making a dint in my low self-esteem. Things seem that little bit brighter, for which thanks be to God. On Thursday morning I went to Mass at the local Catholic parish before breakfast which, while not seeming like much, was a big step for me to go somewhere where many people are and to challenge my anxiety in doing that. It felt good. God willing, I can do similar this week.
I've pushed myself to be more social with the staff and fellow patients, and that has helped too. It can be tough, far easier to retreat to my room, but challenging myself -- despite the hard work -- produces far more benefits, as the psychologist and I discussed, and as I saw from the good day at home last Saturday.
My sincerest and heartfelt thanks to you all again. I will write more soon.