Categories: depression, anxiety
Date: 10 November 2009 09:28:54
Thank you all for the comments and e-mails: they are greatly appreciated and valued.
Just an update to say I am still here -- and doing alright. I had quite a number of days off work, had a brief [5 days] stay in a psychiatric unit [which was helpful -- though at times mind-numblingly dull: the weekend in particular] and have now returned to work. It is a darn hard slog to be honest, and tears are never far off, but the love of family, friends and colleagues is helping me through.
This time it is more anxiety than depression: and while neither is pleasant the intensity of anxiety has shocked me. My mind is far too alert and far too involved at throwing thoughts at me that I barely know where to begin.
I saw a psychologist today which was helpful [kindly organised and paid through work]: but also rather daunting -- there is work, and not easy work at that, to be done. I'm trying, and missing, to aim for one day, one hour, one minute at a time, as opposed to the frantic pace I am used to. But I must listen to my body -- it cannot cope as it did, at least not now, and I need to recognise that.
Thank you again for your messages, thoughts and prayers. I do not know when I will get the strength and courage to write again, but I pray it will not be far off. God bless.