Categories: anxiety
Date: 29 October 2008 04:39:06
Summer may be on its way, but we have some [much-needed and valued] rain, which is a very pleasant thing to see, and watch.
That said, not sure what it is about this time of year, perhaps the season change, but I am feeling very 'bleh'. And, speaking to friends, work collegues, and from some of the blogs I read, I see I am not alone. Anxiety. Depression. Stress.
I had thought it was perhaps related to the extra pressure I put on myself for uni, but once I handed in my assignments I did not feel any better. Sadly, I had convinced myself that was the cause -- not that my depression and anxiety was looming again: even though the signs were there. I may be pessimistic often, but I am an eternal optimist when it comes to hoping I do not see the black dog again.
I am doing alright, thanks be to God. Family and friends are there, in prayer, in e-mails, in calls. Management and my colleagues are being their usual kind and considerate selves, making sure I am okay and letting me know if I need time I can take it. I may whinge and whine at times about work and its problems, but I truly am blessed with the people I work with, and with my family and friends. Thanks and praise be to God.
It is so overwhelming at times, and simply so darn frustrating. But I know, through the love of family and friends, and the grace and love of God, I will see the sunr shine again.