Categories: relationships
Date: 21 August 2007 09:51:06
Though not wise as a serpent, as I should be.
Once again, someone has intentionally manipulated me. They knew what to say to get me where they wanted me. This may sound harsh, at least it does from me [still wanting to think the best of everyone], but it is clear that they had an agenda and knew how to draw me in and have me where they wanted me. What makes it bad is not seeing it and letting myself be drawn into it -- it's happened enough in my life for me to be able to identify it and I need to take some responsibility for my actions; what makes it worse is the impact it has had on a (true) friend of mine, who is now in a position he shouldn't have been in. All rather complicated, and, honestly, the less said the better.
It may sound odd, perhaps stupid even, but I am still rather confused. And scared, dare I say. I know this person could do the same to me again, as they know what to say to me to get me where they want me. And I'm not very good under pressure. I'm as likely to revert to a "Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full sir" mentality as I am to try and cut off contact. Stupid, as I said: but that's me. Prayers appreciated: not just for me, though I'd love them, but for all involved in this.