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Date: 19 September 2005 16:45:30
Only I would manage to lock myself out of the flat while supposed to be having a hen night in it. The lovely carpenter next door cut a panel out of the door so i could crawl in and then put it back in while we were all drinking champagne. Was a bit like a porn movie plot to be honest (giggly girls getting changed, carpenter fixing the door in the bedroom) but obviously it went no further than that. He is a sweetheart to do that though.
Rest of the hen night was great - lovely spa and lolling around and then dinner and dancing. I was so pleased to see my dear friend having a good time - only two weeks til the wedding!
Work is still hideous. I am trying to forget about it most of the time. But in the middle of it this morning I was thanking God so much that he doesn't change even though everything else does. And I prayed this morning:
Lord, thank you that you never reshuffle your editorial team, or change your political viewpoint
Thank you that you aren't about to go tabloid and make all our hard work irrelevant
You are never going to cut my column because it doesn't fit with your new look.
You never want me to write in a way that isn't really me.
You're never going to replace me with a more glamorous outsider.
Thank you that there is room for all of us in your pages, and you delight in the fact that we aren't all the same
You know my words before I write them
You delight when I write the truth, and when I get it wrong you accept my corrections
I can be peaceful because I know that the ownership of my work is not about to change
I can be happy because I know your demands are not affected by political expediency, and your moral standpoint is not compromised by fear of losing your own job or by demands of bosses above your head.
With you, the editor's decision is final. Thank you that it is always right.
Ok, it's a bit flippant, but it makes the point. God doesn't change, even when everything else does. And it's him that matters in the end. And at the moment, I'm feeling quite calm.