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Date: 28 March 2008 11:13:34
Elicia's pretty much walking again now - although the 500m stroll down the shops tuckers her out and she's sore afterwards. But it makes her (and I both) feel a lot better just because it's proof she's on the mend and that everything will be back to normal soon.
Well, except for the very noisy bundle of joy ;)
Someone asked me yesterday how I feel to be a dad, and I had trouble answering. It's strange. Sometimes I'll be at work or watching tele or something else mundane and all of a sudden I feel incredibly fantastic, like everything's right with the world. I think it's hormones. Or love. Whatever, it feels great and I can't wait to come home and see my family and hold out little boy.
But then other times I feel kind of dull and a bit confused. Like I don't know how to feel about it all. Like I'm not very emotionally involved in what's going on. Some of the things that happen aren't situations that normally make me happy, noisy late nights for example. I don't feel sad either, nor regretful, it's more kind of like I don't know how to feel or what to feel - unless it's slightly bewildered.
Besides, there's nothing to be done: we're well and truly committed now! And anyway, he's 3.5 weeks now, which means that with any luck we're halfway to sleeps-through-the-night stage. (Ssssh, I don't want any more horror stories thank you.)