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Date: 20 April 2004 01:13:03
Well, it's actually day 3 today, but I'm commenting on yesterday...
We had cell group last night, with lots of extra people invited along for the 40 days thing. 22 altogether! We had to split into 2 groups for discussion, after crowding together to snigger at the very American video introduction.
The idea of "What's your purpose" is a strange one - it's hard for me to know what the real answer is. I mean, on a broad level I don't really know - I seem to just be hanging around trying to be a good person until God gives me a proper job - so it's like I invent my own little purposes along the way, some of them God-jobs, some of them just for fun, some of them help people, some don't, but I don't really think about it much. And even after this program, I'm not sure that I will end up with a goal as such - maybe the purpose is not goal-oriented. But if it's not a goal, if it's just some sort of wishy-washy "you're just here to glorify God" then that has no actaul meaning to my life and I might as well do whatever I want (as long as I'm trying to be a Good Person). Hmmm, and then I was thinking, well maybe there's not one big purpose for everyone, but most people have like a series of little purposes - but I'm still thinking of purposes as goals, and I don't think that's the point.
After I'd been all intellectually confused a few times, one of the other guys there who's a bit younger than me said simply "I think our purpose is to help people, and to help them get to know God?" and I thought - far out, I am such a self-absorbed, introverted wierdo that I have to make everything more difficult than it really is.
Sometimes God does give real purposes and sometimes they're not hard.