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Date: 15 April 2005 04:58:05
Sometimes Des (not our housemate's real name) stays out late at night, and it's funny because if we're at home Elicia can't sleep properly until she gets in. She worries in case something has happened to her. I think it's kind of sweet, it reminds me of my Mum when I was a young guy living at home. Slightly scary to think of Elicia being motherly - even scarier when you realise Des is only a few years younger than ourselves...
I was reading a very interesting book last night about Christian leadership - called 'Leadership on the OtherSide' by Eadum I think [ed. it's Easum, Bill] - it talks about how quickly our society is changing, and how the call of leaders in times of extreme flux is different to when things are settled. Decisions must be made quickly and ideas tested and tried on the fly. Sounds dangerous. Sounds exciting. Our church is currently experimenting with alternative church - by having a cafe-style worship (yes, it's still called worship) on a Monday night. It starts this Monday, so I won't prejudge it. (Okay I will, but in brackets. Cafe churches were cutting edge in 1975. We should be beyond that now.) Anyway, it might end up being fantastic. Expect a report when I get along. Anyway - I was talking about leadership, and the leadership book.
Sometimes I think I'd like a call. I feel like I'm waiting for one. I've been waiting for quite a while now... maybe I should just go and do something anyway. I think I'm at a point where I'm realising that my role as a Christian is fairly mediocre - sure, I do stuff for the church and whatever, but nothing very powerful or huge. It makes me frustrated. To my own detriment, I have always had a habit of dreaming big, acting small. I hate it. And it's time to change. In my mind there's two ways to go ahead: either become happy with mediocrity, or actually do something outrageous to extend myself.
We'll see what happens.