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Date: 16 August 2007 12:11:51
I didn't have my camera with me, or I did, but not the memory card , helpful, and saw the most amazing rainbow. Ever been so captivated by something? Well I was, by a rainbow. Never thought it would happen, but it did.
So, to go back to the beginning, I had a stressful trip yesterday, all the trains out of my back and beyond home town were canceled. Replacement buses were late and took forever when they did get here. By the time I got on the train back to London, I was tired and not hugely happy. Its been a rough few days, in fact, a rough few months all round.
I finally sat on the train and it all hit me, and I had to stop myself bursting into tears! Sad I know. I managed it anyway. Put the ipod on, stared out of the window and day dreamed. Thought back to my job which I no longer work, the last two years, life in the city, the dog dying, the assault a few weeks ago, dad being ill, and other stuff.
Thought about my faith journey, and where I stood right now with Jesus. It wasnt looking great!
Anyway, outside , the sky was black, the clouds were thick and the rain was coming down. Hardly inspiring is it.
Then suddenly I had a spiritual moment, eeek!
I saw a rainbow. The most vibrant, colourful, beautiful rainbow. I could see from one end to the other (as much as you can with a rainbow) and it was stunning.
What was more stunning was the fact it seemed to go over the black clouds ... this rainbow, electrifying in colour and shape covered the dark black thick clouds.
Ever so slowly (well, in 5 mins or so) the black clouds then started to give way to really blue sky.
I have to say, I have just never seen anything like it.
I was listening to a song on my Ipod, some of the lyrics go like this :
My heart is restless in me
My wings are all worn out
I'm walking in the wilderness
And I cannot get out
I need You, Oh, I need You
Blessed Savior
(the middle bit which i am not typing)
My bed is soaked with sadness
My sadness has no end
A downward spiral of despair
That I keep falling in
I need You, Oh, I need You
To You my soul shall fly
I need You, Oh, I need You
It all just fitted, the words were so true for me. And as I sat on the train and watched this rainbow, and remembered that God in it all, I thought , actually I cant do this with out Him. To be all mushy, I just cant.
All the thoughts in my head about walking away, saying sod it to the idea of believing in a Saviour, everything, I just cant do it. And this rainbow thing reminded me, that in amongst everything that is happening, in amongst the move and the new move I will be making again very soon, and the trauma, and the sick, and the everything God is around.
end of mush.