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Date: 28 January 2007 01:40:56
Its late. In fact, it is 1:30 am late. Or early should I say. And I went for a curry after work tonight, which wasnt until half ten. I am also in pain from cramps. I have had a really good time healthwise since the New Year, until the last couple of days. Trying to press on anyway. Just dosnt help my sleep routine at all o rmy energy levels. I have just been reflecting with my house mate, Becky about the last 18 months since I moved into her home. Since I moved from my home, town, old job, friends to what was this new city, new home, new friends, new job. How quickly has the time gone. I was only meant to be here a year, and now I have been here nearly 18 months. Pressing on for two years by the time my contract ends for good in the summer. It has to end. I was only here for a "gap year" which has extended, and so it has to come to an end. Sadly. I love my job. Its hard. In fact, very hard at times. Very energy consuming, very emotionally draining sometimes. And I do have bad days, but you know, despite them bad days, I love my job, and the more I am here, the longer I spend time with people, working with them and for them, the more I start to feel such a passion for this community, and a hunger to see some good in it. A hunger to continue working here somehow, amongst people, some of whom have become friends. Some of whm, I love to pieces. I am part of a wonderful Home group, who I havnt seen in a few weeks, but am making the promise now to make sure I go this week. Home group is an important part of my week, because it is my time. My time to say what I want, even though usually my comments are so silly and stupid it dosnt matter. Still they have enough grace to humour me. I love them to pieces.
Anyway, I am thinking about my future. Do I stay or do I go? Do I stay in this community that I have grown to really love, and have such a passion for. Even though it might not be the most illustrious one, and has some pretty deep rooted problems and some very deprived areas, and some real social issues. Do I stay part of a community I belong to and in? I would need to find somewhere to live, and of course a job.
Or do I look further afield and prepare to move again? Maybe somewhere totally alien, again. Totally different again? Big decisions to make. If anyone has any advice feel free to give it ...
Anyway, I came online originally to blog about social regeneration, which is something I have spent a bit of the week talking about with various people and attending various meetings about, but maybe that will have to come tomorrow, as I have to be up bright and early in the morning, to attend, and help do the sound and screen, and encouragement for a group of our young people who are bravely leading the entire Sunday mornign Service. They have come up with the ideas, worked the plans, leading it, giving the sermon (in bits) and being involved in every aspect of it. Myself and other leaders will be there to jolly them up, smile and give them huge pats on the back at the end.
More to come tomorrow ...