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Date: 27 May 2007 15:30:09
So often, the fact that God is near me and near those I pray for has kept me going. When Danny was in the pits, God's presence was the only thing that kept me from going mad with worry and breaking under the weight of not being able to help at all because him and the others were so far away.
It's nearly ironic that the roles are now reversed and that after Guy's moved here and we've shared house, fun etc he's grown poorly and while Dan's getting so much better Guy seems to spend his time worse.
Even now though, knowing that I've handed it over to God again this morning curbs worry and frees me to be me.
I've just been on the phone with Fabrice. He's really tired and beginning to get a migraine. What would I give to be able to hug him and look after him and give him a head massage so he can rest and relax. He's going to get an hour's kip. I've stopped and prayed. If I were present, knowing what I find soothing if ever my head aches, I'd have put my hands on the sides of his face then I'd have put a hand over his eyes, so I figured that was as good a thing as nay to ask God to do...
Dieu Tout Puissant, Papa, fais connaitre ta presence a Fabrice. Poses tes mains sur ses joues, sur ses tempes, sur son front, ferme ses yeux. Rafraichis-le, reconforte le et benis le avec un sommeil reconstituant. Entoure le de ta paix, qu'il se reveille repose et entierement remis.
So handing my burden over to Jesus has freed me so I spent some time on the phone to Fabrice and could encourage him (aparently I did anyway, not that I thought I did much).
It freed me to be able to do the desk this morning without the odd weary and sad feeling I had stopping my work. It gave me what I needed of God's resources to tie me over until M prayed for me and then until H came and prayed too and gave me a really good hug.
God knew how much I needed that hug.
Really really!!
Also I was so proud of H for how much she's grown and matured. She is one true Princess. Thinking back on when I first met her... Thinking back on when she wouldn't pray out loud unless coaxed. Thinking of the kindness, gentleness, simplicity and power of what she prayer over me earlier on... WOW!! :)
Wow Wow Wow!!
I've been thinking about the walks each of us walk and how we often want to rush the obvious because it sticks out and looks sore to us. Usually God is in fact after something else which is under the surface, much more essential and actually affecting a bigger part of us than what we can see.
It's hard to ignore the obvious for an underlying matter, really difficult, but it makes all the difference. It is the most powerful thing we can do for ourselves and for those around us.
The matters of consequence of which Le Petit Prince speaks are just that, underlying things that are obscured by the obvious.
I'm working on some underlying things at the moment, and it's making no apparent sense. All I can do is hang in there and watch and see. God promises the outcomes will be good.
The obvious stuff will unknot itself without my assistance. The underlying stuff will not. So I must keep my eyes on what is important, work on what I find easiest to let slip, and leave it up to God to make sense of it all.
That's GOOD. I've got work to do, but I'm off the hook. FREEDOM is mine! :)