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Date: 25 May 2006 16:35:01
I've had an interesting last few days.
I've got some new targets at work and I think they're going to be real tough because of how they go against my impulsive butterfly nature.
Please bear me up concerning work and pray for perseverance and focus, also that I'd communicate better and more. I need clarity of mind too.
My younger bro Danny is back in hospital.
Paranoia
He's not doing too badly. Dad says Danny's the most lucid he's been in ages due to the fact that the hospital is a drug and alcohol free zone.
We're a bit worried how he'll fare when it's time he goes home to his little flat. He really doesn't look after himself and he thinks he can be on meds and live his polluted lifestyle without any problems.
I don't know what to ask for right now...
My biggest fish to fry is bro number 1
My star of a Guyguy has returned from France in a poor emotional, mental and spiritual state. I won't go into details and I'm not sure of the reasons for it all.
There're probably way more reasons than I bear to face so I really would value your prayers for endurance and patience to let things come out bit by bit, to deal with and sort out each after the next and to love him through all of it.
Guy has been extremely apprehensive and pretty much constanly afraid for the past few weeks. It's not like him even if he has been prone to worrying to excess. Pray he will know peace and grow in boldness, that he will trust God increasingly, who is the One who keeps him safe and watches over him, and that he will be patient with himself to walk on in all this.
Also, if you are able, know him, want to reach out and be there for him, please please do, by phone, letters, email even (guy.mould@ukonline.co.uk) and visits/invites, as when I'm at work he's not happy being alone for the time being and on occasion I value a bit of a break.
Also pray for both our Maman and Dad who aren't Christians and have tons on their plate already in their own lives without the older lads' struggles. They haven't got prayer to roll their burdens onto Jesus and they're far and further away from here and, if I know them at all, will be doing their nut over not being able to help hands-on. I know Dad feels powerless to help Danny even though he's always doing so much for him. I know Maman will be feeling the distance from all of us more than ever.
I'm going to be aunty for the second time some point July-early August so Claire can probably do with a thought here and there, that she'll be at peace and that the pregnancy will keep on track as well as it seems to be.
I feel I don't know what's going on at the mo. There is so much kicking off in my life and in family and friends' that I'm losing track of which way to turn. It makes the *nasty stuff* that sometimes goes on at work seem less worse somehow even though that's simply an impression.
Somehow within all that I'v again got to get my finances back under control because the last month and a half I've slipped up and made a new mess. Arghh!
I'm still living in hope I'll make it to France for Destinee and maybe to see new BABY.
I'm being treated by some awesome darling friends whom I can't thank enough so that I can share in time with them and some others. I can't thank them enough. I can't thank God enough for them. Still I can try.
Bright shining stars you are! You are!!!! Loves ya!
If anyone fancies joining me the weekend that ends June and begins July, I'm going to Milton Keynes for a cracking little music festival: H3!! Campsite is the Abbey grounds. Very nice for the middle of a town. Details on the website or from me.
I still talk too much.
It's good to be back.
Dith, Liz, Ian! Cheers for your welcome back!
It really is good to be back.
Jacqui!!! A huge huge apology for not being able to come to your birthday celebrations. I'm on rota the whole of that weekend and after missing my mate R's wedding the weekend just gone for the same reasons I know it's not even worth asking for a swap. I think I've got the following weekend free so tell me if you'd like an invader then. Also midweeks are looking good at the mo... xxx