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Date: 26 June 2006 00:39:28
I met new neighbours last night.
I was going to bed and decided that the noise was of a 'if you can't beat them join them' standard. Singing, laughing and guitars. Can't be bad can it! Well I gatecrashed and it was lovely. I can't put into words how refreshing it was to meet a load of new people quite randomly and be made so welcome. Brill!!
Had a good chat with a couple of very good friends this eve. Put into words where I'm at and realised that even though I'm feeling the pressure, well, I'm not doing too badly. I knew this already but hadn't vocalised the reality of it. I do need time away though and I don't know whether my bosses are going to be understanding or not. I've not yet been able to sort out a swap for the weekend coming and I'm not telling the crew at H3 that I'm not going to make. I don't know how, but I intend to obtain the time off. I need to get out of Walsall and take a break. Stewarding is just the kind of out-time that will give me the thinking space and the time to touch base with God that I'm by now craving.
I haven't cracked the checking in with Him daily thing for a scary while by now. The fact that I've lost daily reading habit recently means that I'm not getting my daily Word input. No bread means no life and no growth. If I don't get resource soon, things are going to go crunch.
A friend of mine is visiting today from farflung shores. A treat that comes once a year and that is wonderful. I've got a heart for where she is serving and often wonder whether i'll et a go-ahead signal from God to encourage her over there and be of use rather than only here when she visits. It's so amazing to hear what Our Lord is doing so far away and in different lives. In fact it seems like a different world too. I value so many people and the way their lives enrich mine but I am often so poor at telling them how precious they are. I want to become more faithful in this encouraging ministry, this support which a simple word, call, letter can provide that keeps one going in the midst of storms and marathons. I'm prone to being enthusiastic and constant for the 1st 5 seconds and dwindle away nie on immediately. Fat load of use that is when someone is up to something for the long haul and I don't tell them they rock even though I think it regularly. If I don't tell them, they might never know. If they knew then they would forget eventually unless I tell them often.
So I need to seek God in private moments daily and I need to encourage and support and contact people more often. Wonders... I have a star chart to make and print off for work. Maybe I could change my pretty calendar into a star chart of whether I meet my Big Boss daily. It's already become my tracking method for whether I've contacted people, who and when. Why not add that extra dimension!
I didn't get very much sleep last night. It's way past my bedtime by now! TTFN
PS: Ian, your down-under support is much appreciated and valued. Thank you very much for your comments and for checking in every so often like you do. :)