Late again

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Date: 27 August 2006 01:40:16

I'm being late for work again at the mo, 3 to 5 minutes, chronic. It's crap and I seem to have no hold on it. I hate feeling out of control...
It's late night and I'm online. That's late too.
I'v jus got a letter from my insurance saying 'thank you for cancelling your policy' because I forgot last month's payment. Late again.

Poo! must get a grip and don't seem to be able to. Patience, all things come in good time according to God's not mine or theirs.

I have the antibiotics which dentist prescribed on Tues. Bought them yesterday cos I got paid. 20 tablets cost me £6.65. That's 5 days worth and it's got to be a rip off!! I was left with so little cash in my pocket that I hadn't enough money to get food shopping with cash so had to pay on my card and (the reason I'd got cash out in the 1st place) ended up spending too much. I like internet shopping and window shopping for that. I'm nowhere near as bad then as in town. Now I'm going to have to steer clear of shops 4 whole weeks. I only have milk money left now. Bother.

Though actually on thinking of it, I may be ok.. Mate asked me if I could do dreads on him and I'v said yes. He's paying me. I will be ok.

Spoke to Guy and Sam last night. They sound ok. Sam's fine. Guy's a bit iffy about the fact that there're no keys to my dad's house and it stresses the worried part of him that the meds aren't touching. They visited Dan with our aunt on Weds and all 4 of them went 4 walk in the grounds. Nice. Dan held decent length conversations and even laughed at jokes. I think that is officially the best I've heard him in months. He could jus about hold conversations before Christmas... Only short stuff the last few times I saw him. So this is totally fab news. What is all the more wonderful is the fact that going on that I take it that my idea is true and that it's taken less time to get the meds into his system this second time round. That means (according to detective Minn) that though doing a bunk for 8 days was crap, it didn't destroy the entirety of the previous 2 months' med course.

I bought a new type of herbal tea yesterday and something in it tastes really bitter and I can't decide what. I can't decide whether I like it or not yet it's moreish. How very very odd!!

I've finally got my copy of The Silmarillion back off th shelf. I've begun reading it 4 times by now. Hopefully I will not get sidetracked this time. I'm thinking the LOTR is next as it's way too long since I last wandered through my favourite landscapes. I've actually been working my way through books at top speed the past few weeks. A combination of going on hols and therefore not having standard home distractions to tear me away and of a lack of people soliciting my attention. I can't say how nice it's been to hear from various friends over the past week. I've watched a film with one, chatted with others, sat and chatted over cups of tea or phones accordingly, even been out for lunch on Tuesday... That was a birthday treat. I was so chuffed!

I want to keep the 2 new kids at work forever if they stay the way they have been the past week... They're stars. Fun, relaxed, One of them makes cakes and paints, both of them chat and are civil (though both of them swear like troopers) and friendly. Godness I could put them in my pocket for safekeeping. I need God's inspiration to encourage the lovely stuff and some kind of breakthough to snap 1 of the other kids out of the evil streak she's been nurturing the past week more than ever. She can be wonderfull but seems caught up in showing off the worst parts of her character and attitude most of the time. It's as if the nice bits are when she forgets herself or needs a break.
I don't understand and it's wearing thin by now. Problem is I've got to not bite her head off for another 5 shifts before we get a few days off from each other. Owee! I know it's going to be hard because I had trouble winding down from yesterday's bitchyness.

It's so quiet outside... There're no polise cars and it's been awhile since the last train or car close by... Not bad. I'd love the silence of the cottage but this is not bad. Pity I can hear what must be the motorway humming in the background.

Night night
Consider yourself hugged if you read this :)
xxx