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Date: 29 January 2004 13:10:33
Craving your indulgence for a while, but being able to work through my thoughts online is an amazing resource when trying to find an acceptable way forward. I was listening in the car this morning to Ian White singing his version of what I guess must have been Psalm 143 - show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul (v8b). I like also the first part of that verse - let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. My bible reading this morning was the story of Hezekiah's illness, and how he was spared to live another 15 years. But the comment in the notes I was reading was that maybe he lived 15 years too long, since he didn't seem to make good use of his extra time.
Radiotherapy seems, from what I've heard, to be a blunt instrument. It may have the desired effect of clubbing to death an unwanted growth (which in most cases where it is used will be life-threatening), but it also does a lot of what we would nowadays call collateral damage. There is a spiritual romantic in me who would love to say to the doctors - leave us alone; I'll pray to my God, and he will heal my daughter. But there is a realist who says that what the doctors prescribe is also the path which God expects us to follow. Several years from now, I want to be able to say to my daughter - we made the best decision possible.
Meanwhile, we are enjoying clear. cold weather. There is a little snow on the ground, which is fun for the children. This evening, I have a meeting with daughter's teacher - a routine parent/teacher consultation, which could not have happened more opportunely. God works in mysterious ways - maybe more of that later.