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Date: 17 April 2008 10:30:06
I am not qualified to take up tractor girl's rant - one of my problems (which is being identified through counselling) is that I tend to see all the greys, all of the different ways of looking at something, and then can't clearly choose a radical way forward. And for much of my life, I probably haven't seen the church and the gospel as belonging together - that sounds horrific, but I came to faith through a para-church organisation, whose clearly presented view of the gospel appeared to me to be something quite different from the somewhat vague message emanating from the church.
I guess that I do believe in Heaven and Hell, but am (myself) somewhat vague about what they are, and who ends up where. I cannot believe that a person who has led a good life (and, yes, you can all chorus at me that no-one is good, but you know what I mean) is going to be consigned to hell just because they never went forward at a Billy Graham rally (or something similar). So perhaps I don't see getting people into church as a priority (and if I did, I would be so frustrated at the church's unwillingness to adapt so that it might be the kind of place where people want to be that I would probably quickly find myself back in a psychiatric hospital). Another reason why I would find myself locked up would be my frustration with myself - I have difficulty communicating with people - whether it's because I have Asperger's, or something else, I am unable to carry the kind of conversation that we are told to have in order to convert people.
The thing is, tractor girl, I agree with you - with my heart - it's just that my head asks - yes, but, how?