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Date: 26 February 2006 17:20:28
Are we coping, as a family? Possibly not. I've just had an argument with Beloved because I was trying to relax for the 10 minutes or so that it would take for the biscuits Celebrity and I had been making to bake in the oven, and Beloved was tidying up (compulsively, I thought), and quizzing me about a week-end which is three weeks away. It's become normal for me to panic at this point in the week-end. Saturday and Sunday have almost gone, and I have done almost nothing at my desk. I used to get an hour on a Saturday morning before we went shopping, but these days we have to shop earlier in order to be sure that Celebrity gets to her drama class.
Beloved has fallen out with her mother, because her mother wants her to visit once a week to put away shopping. Beloved objects because her mother is entitled to a home help, but doesn't get one because her house is too untidy. Hence, full circle, the intensity with which Beloved tidies in our house.
Beloved and I went out last night. We saw Walk the Line, which is a pretty good film, especially because of the way the music and the story are interwoven. It's also shocking, especially because it starts with a family tragedy. Then we had a meal in Frankie and Benny's. Beloved hopes that she and I can get more time to ourselves. And we need to, but I suspect that Beloved is now pinning all of her hopes on these times away, and not trying to work out how we can live as a family.