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Date: 16 July 2007 07:14:57
A more leisurely start than usual - I have an appointment to see the doctor before heading for my workplace, while daughter is attending a dance workshop this week; wife is working different hours so that she can start later. There seems to be a cottage industry now of holiday clubs - unfortunately, though, in general they don't start early enough to allow us simply to work as usual. Our own regular holiday club does provide sufficient cover, but is relatively expensive.
I think that my current anxiety is understandable. It's been pretty clear over the past week that if I don't have to think about work, I am reasonably happy. The epicentre of my difficulties is identifiably at work. Yes, our family faces challenges (although last night everybody went to bed without fuss, later than usual because we'd had a visitor), and they do contribute, because I can't count on a relaxing evening or week-end to counter the stress of work, but my situation at work is clearly unhealthy. Hopefully changes can be made - until that happens, I guess that I shall have to maintain a level of detachment - it is (to use a word often used by a colleague, whose behaviour has made my life particularly difficult) unacceptable that I should feel suicidal on account of something which is under the control of others who, supposedly, have some concern for my welfare.